~IT’s My L!Fe~

Finally its here, the day I was waiting for past 1 year… last year same day someone said yes to me and changed my life, she added colors to my life, a smile on my face and made me realize that this life is worth living and is quite beautiful got the love of my life after a waiting for complete 4 years…

The wait was worth it as the 1 year I spent with her was the best time of my life something I can never forget but a fool can never realize the worth of true love and I think am definitely  the biggest fool…

People tell me that no one can understand women the way you do, you have a women’s heart but I proved them wrong… I made her go away made her to leave me I broke up with her 2 days back… 

Yes it was my own doings that made her to leave me… I still don’t know what got into me maybe its all the tension that I am taking about her career which she’s not taking seriously or is it something related to my own dreams that I want to fulfill but why can’t I fulfill them with her being with me after all she’s a really wonderful girl and who understands everything I say… 

Let me tell you I am a very difficult person to stay with, because of all the mood swings in my life… no matter how many of these mood swings lead to fights she was always with me… 

But I guess there’s always a limit and she couldn’t tolerate more so she said it “I need a break-up” I like someone else… I know the liking line doesn’t mean anything she loves me and will always love me and same for me I can never stop loving her but I don’t know why I just cant get back with her maybe because she tried to make me jealous by saying that she likes someone else… I know this will really hurt her but its better this way at least I won’t hurt her daily if I cont. to stay with her…  

But I still can’t figure out why am acting like such a jerk, like an asshole… why is her career so imp for me maybe because its imp for my family… but its me who love her and its me who has to live with her… and I really wanted to give all the possible support but I guess my opinion was of no value to her and maybe this is the reason I am so irritated about… 

All I know is I really love her a lot and am really serious about her but considering the present situation and the state of my mind I guess this I the best choice for both of us, I think this is the time to work on our career, a time to make our stand in this world and if we can’t do it together we should let go of each other… but this doesn’t mean that I’ll go and fall in love with someone else…. NO I’ll not… I’ll always love her…

All I want right now is to see her successful, with a great job and a great life… I know she wants to come back and its really very idiotic of me to say no but I guess this is the best for both of us because if I cont. today I know every single day that she’ll spend with me she’ll get hurt and I really don’t wanna do that.  

I am really sorry for not being there with you on our 1^st anniversary and your birthday.
I don’t think I have the right to say this but I LOVE YOU!!!

C’mon guys send in all your beautiful words for me as comments I promise I won’t disapprove any of them… 

UPDATE:- Thanks my dear bro thanks for talking to me last night it helped me to figure out stuff and to find out the real problems…
and thanks swthrt for being so understanding.. 
Things are quite ok now as we have found a way to go through all this..

Dream, yes you can call it a dream only… there are a few places in India where I really wanted to go and Pune was one of them…

I once read somewhere that Pune is called “the city of youth” maybe because of the no of education institutes and now a major IT hub.
And finally it was like a dream come true when my mom said she wants to go to shirdi and that means Pune too…
So the process of reservations started… and the plan was like this:-

Departure from Ambala: - Oct 6th, 2008 by Jhelum express @ 6am
Arrival in Pune: - Oct 7th around 3pm

6th and 7th in Pune, 8th morning-shirdi and return same day, 9th in Pune also.

Return:-

Departure from Pune: - Oct 10th, 2008 early morning by Goa express
Arrival in Delhi: - Oct 11th, 2008

But since the return tickets were not confirmed and we were about to cancel the trip good news came from my Dee in Pune…

Apparently there was this new train called “AC spl Nzm-Pune express” was started for the commonwealth games that were going to happen in Pune and since it was a special train it had lots of tickets available.
but there was a small problem it runs only twice a week so we had to pre pone the trip so now our schedule was something like this :-

Departure from hazrat nizamudin station {Delhi}:- Oct 4th, 2008 with my bua and jijaji {Dee’s mom dad} and Arrival in Pune on Oct 5th, 2008
Return trip: - dept. from Pune: - Oct 9th, 2008 and back in Delhi on Oct 10th, 2008

So the plan was set, tickets in hand and the journey began with a 5hour bus ride from chd. To Delhi followed by a 30 min autoriksha ride from ISBT to haz. Nizamudin. We reached nizamudin station an hour before the scheduled dept. and I think it was from the back side entry of the station, the train was to leave from platform no. 4 and when I reached there I was like am I at a railway station in Delhi or some village… yes trust me people it wasn’t even cemented throughout bua and jijaji also arrived the same time we did and since there was no place to sit we found a single working fan and choose to stand below it while every one was having tea I went to the end of platform to buy a sandwich to eat…
when everyone was discussing that we should have waited in the waiting room I was busy finding something to make this trip a bit interesting…
besides my new hobby of reading novels  took me to a book stall and there I found a great book titled “Off course I love you… till I find someone better” a story of guy from DCE will tell you about the book later but just for the record it was really a great book…

The train arrived on time; me and mom were in coach B3 while bua and jijaji were in B4 right from entering we were finding out some way to be in the same coach. Although the train was quite vacant it was bua’s cabin that looked almost full and not because of the other passengers but because of the baggage they were carrying.

I called mom to come and still here only and will change one the TT comes.
Let me tell you about the people in that cabin:-

Ø  A  lady and her just married daughter – she was a really simple lady but you can easily tell that her daughter was something from even the first look I’ll be referring to her as ‘S’

Ø  A really tall, hot lady with her 7-8 yr old son – she was fucking beautiful thin tall and in a black saaree I’ll refer to her as ‘M’

We requested S and her mom to shift to our coach but she refused and was really in a confused state because of all the luggage she was carrying we asked her are you shifting somewhere or what but she took it as if we are asking her to move to other coach again but then we asked a bit more specifically again and then she told us that she’s coming back from USA after completing a sky diving training and as a matter of fact she’s the first women in the world to sky dive at both north and south poles without any training and that she belongs to Pune and she’ll perform a demo jump at commonwealth games too.

Now lets shift our attention to M, lets start from beginning her husband entered the coach with 4-5 jumpin and packet of chips for his son and then he asked us “are you going to Pune” to which we replied yes and then he asked us to take care of his wife and kid as she is travelling by Indian railway for the very first time and then came the goodbye time. she was sitting there with him at the aisle seat of the next cabin with a tear in her eyes and her head resting on his shoulder, it was really a very romantic scene and the train’s movement brought a halt to this romantic moment he went out of the AC area but was standing outside and looking at her through the glass she immediately ran towards the door and hugged him and touched his feet.. Man that was a true DDLJ moment!!!

She came back to her seat and told us that she’s from Dubai and traveling first time by train although her son has travelled a lot.
By now we were really in talking mode with S and then a man came and took an aisle seat in the cabin before ours and the child from the top berth said mummy woo… she looked at him and shared something with her eyes and he left. After a few moments she went to the washroom and came back and said “abhi to train khali hai to piche jakar khule mein baithte hain thoda relax kar lun” we all said ya sure… and she left with her son and took a seat in the last cabin which was totally vacant.

By now S was showing us her certificates and was telling about her achievements we were really very impressed and you might recognize her if you recall a news where a couple got married in a hot air balloon well she was the same girl, she showed us all the wedding pics..

Ok now let the great story begins, a story on which chetan bhagat can write a novel or ekta kapoor can create an episode…

The story of that night in B4 coach…

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Here’s something that made an impact on my heart… its something i can listen to again & again… 

perfect blend of heart toching poetry and laughter… 

“Koi deewana kehta hain koi pagal samjhta hain, 

magar dharti ki bechani ko bas badal samjhta hain,
Main tujhse dur kaisa hu,tu mujhse dur kaisi hain,
Yeh tera dil samjhta hain ya mera dil samjhta hain

Ke mohobbat ek ehsaason ki paawan si kahaani hain,
kabhi kabira deewana tha kabhi meera diwaani hain,
Yahaan sab log kehte hain meri aakho mein aasu hain,
Jo tu samjhe toh moti hain jo na samjhe toh paani hain

Mat poooch ki kya haal hai mera tere aage,
Tu dekh ke kya rang hain tera mere aage

Samandar peer ka andar hain lekin ro nahi sakta,
Yeh aasu pyaar ka moti hain isko kho nahi sakta,
Meri chahat ko dulhan tu bana lena magar sun le,
Jo mera ho nahi paaya woh tera ho nahi sakta

Bhramar koi kumudni par machal baitha toh hungama,
Humare dil mein koi khwaab pal baitha toh hungama,
Abhi tak doob kar sunte the sab kissa mohobbat ka,
Main kisse ko hakikat mein badal baitha toh hungama”

The foll. comes as a result of a thought that came to my mind while i was watching ‘californication s01 e06′ and from a person who is not very experienced about this topic….

Human kind is in itself strange and unique , you can never judge what the other person thinks or believes , even if you know someone for years there’ll still be times when you’ll find out something new about the other person…

Sex is one thing that is even more strange and this passion has no rules ya I know there are all those stuff available which tells you diff. kinda positions and all but seriously do you think this passion is limited to that?

I think NO!!! , coz I know everyone has one or the other fantasy at the back of your mind that you want to fulfill with your partner BUT is your partner and you are on the same page about this…
have you ever talked about your fantasies with your love and how many times has he/she said yes!!!
Oh you tried it well did he/she like it NO!!! so do you feel unsatisfied?
you have tried your level best to convince her/him and you are tired of requesting him/her to try…
Well what will you do about this…

Lets just add some more spice to this there’s this guy/girl who provokes you to try all kinda stuff that you have always wanted to try, that gives you a sense of satisfaction!!!

Loyalty OR Satisfaction, Passion, Fantasy!!!

What’s your choice , Sincere answers plz…

Will your answer change IF-
1> Its not your husband/wife but your GF/BF…
2> Nobody will ever know about this “Fling of yours” with someone else.
3> If you say it depends on the intensity of the relation then how long is it enough for you to be in that relation to choose loyalty.
4> Any other condition that comes to your mind…

P.S.:- comments that are not suitable for general viewing will be rejected do mention your geographical location so that I can know the answers that I am getting from my friends are India specific or global.
Also you can choose to hide your names…

i was thinking about a sms to forward to my frens.. but instead composed these few lines:–

WATER WATER ALL AROUND…
RAINING FROM SKY..
TEARS FROM EYES…
SAME YET DIFF. IN HEART…
A HARMONY UNSUNG…
MAKING ME REALIZE HOW SHORTLIVED THIS BEAUTY IS!!!

Well there’s lots i wanna write but witing for the right time..

will update soon…

This article is a result of a chat i had with Amit Aggarwal an ex IITian who is the creator of ‘mnemonic dictionary’

Everyday you read in newspapers that “Someone from IIT (or IIM) rejected big placement offer to do abc”

Some IITians are now authors of top selling novels {Chetan bhagat,Tushar raheja},many have started their own business,Some are rolling out projects like ‘mnemonic dictionary’ and ‘vakow’ and strangely some like Kaushalendra have even opted to sell vegetables.

They are rejecting huge pay packages to start with something that may not be very promising but ‘IIT this three letter tag can easily get you media attention even if you haven’t started anything great and once you are able attract media half of the work is done soon you’ll get people who are ready to invest in your dreams.

But does that mean only IIT and IIM students think this way ? Well I won’t agree to that, students in other institutions are also very creative and are full of ideas but they are not that lucky, i won’t say that they don’t get oppurtunity but they are actually blindfolded and they don’t see it and this is because the environment in most of the institutions is not compititive. Copying assignments and getting projects made from shops is very common and these institutions are least bothered because they know nomatter what happens their seats will get filled every year.

But if you are determined to do something then no one can stop you…
These days you also find students from other institutions creating wonders but that percentage is still very low.

One major reason why students are not able to turn their dreams into reality is the risk involved, For IITians its easy to kick off jobs and start with something and even if they fail they can go back and take up jobs in any IT company but for others campus placements matters a lot because once you are out of campus it gets too difficult to find a job.

Where there’s a will, there’s a way! if you have passion for something than get up and get going because now is the time to turn your dreams into reality…

ALL THE BEST!

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